“I got tired of waiting, wondering if you were ever come around
my faith in you was fading…” (Taylor Swift, Love Story)
I’d rather have my hopes shattering now more than ever.
On what, you ask?
On grrrr….IT coming back.
Even though I’m so stressed, sad, furious!!!!!,
unconsciously, I still expected.
I hope my expectations will shatter, crash down, burn up—–
so that the healing will start soon.
I’m still in the process of making the hurt worse than it already is.
“Idiot! If he hates you then that means he’s not worthy of you. Isn’t it better to discover what kind of a person he is before it’s too late?” (Ayase, Kare First Love)